So over this past week, you guys have been reading about my job struggles.
When I write on this blog, my primary focus is to journal where I am actually at in my life. Even if it’s negative or less than perfect.
But do I like sharing that stuff? Not at all… It’s uncomfortable to me on a few levels:
First, I’m embarrassed that I personally have struggled with that particular thing, whatever it is. Which is ridiculous because if anyone else said what I was saying, there would be no reason for them to be embarrassed. I would have nothing but empathy for them. Not pity, but empathy.
Second, I’m the type of person that hates to show weakness. I would love for this blog to be reams of lay reports and me talking about how awesome life is as I cast out pearls of wisdom. Truth is, sometimes I struggle hard with life in general.
Regardless of my struggles, I NEVER let them defeat me. Never.
Even in the deepest pit of my periods of depression, there was always some part of me that knew I would take it all back and break through.
And that’s what I’m going to do where I am now. I am going to find the source of my power and dissolve everything that is standing in the way of me being at my best. Or more specifically, feeling my best so that I can be my best.
I had a breakthrough in the middle of this week and although I’m not skipping on clouds yet, I feel like things are headed in the right direction and soon I will be on top of my game again.
I really want to write about it here, but I’m going to save it for a seperate post that will go up soon.